DO UNTO OTHERS
Do to others what you think you deserve yourself. Now understand why I am so horrible to people
hell revealed, again
I decided to play through Hell Revealed since it's four years since the first time I went through it. I've done the first half. I know it's really fucking difficult but embarrassingly I'm too used to running it with the super weapons patch which makes it even harder
Before that I have played such maps as
- garrulo A 32 map set, in Spanish, so I don't know what the hell's going on. I think it's in a gasworks, or something? I've only done half of it so far because I foolishly decided to play it through using pistol starts. I think I might have to go back and carry ammo forwards. Most of the maps are architecturally superb though a couple were irritating enough to skip (I don't like creeping round dark tunnels with no ammunition, it's frustrating) I'll come back to this once I've finished it.
- loh2 Legions of Hell 2 is a set of eleven modernised early PWAD style maps. That is, simple levels with no particular theme and quite boring architecture but detailed to all hell. However, there's usually plenty to shoot, and tons of ammo to shoot it with (a dehacked patch doubling ammo capacity is supplied, I recommend it) so you're never frustrated by lack of resources, so clearly it's all about the gameplay. Having said that level 9 "hell's vanguard" is a masterpiece.
- tolwyn01 Outpost Recon is a single level set initially in a kind of canyon. You climb down it, and cross a river, and there's a base on the other side. You have to go in the base and shut it down. It has a nice plot that adds atmosphere to a map that already has lots of touches of realism. Ammunition is limited and it can get quite annoying but it's worth playing once to look at the architecture.
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Tracks update: aBoUt tImE! was described as the best thing I've released to date which I guess was nice but also predictable.. Very few people share my view that pushing two hundred beats per minute is any way to do rave stuff. Download them if you haven't already. Also people thought the update about the shrink was funny but that's not surprising because I was pretty much copying the style of writing on Something Awful. I have no imagination.
Other news: in a surprising move Bex resubscribed to the mailing list but as yet there has been no hilarious drama. #warwick on quakenet is as dead as the real one on Astrolink was a year or two ago. Work is as boring as all hell. "___ as all hell" is one of my current favourite catchphrases.
Thus ends one of those crappy updates that doesn't serve any other purpose than to keep the date at the top of the front page at least relatively recent.
soft and pretty
99% of girls are incredibly boring once you've got past the initial stage of getting them to do stuff with you.
The remainder are fucking insane
Come to think of it 99% of people are incredibly boring
10 YEARS OF anARCHy TRACKS (part 2)
It's not a coincidence that this week my sampler was 10. It was only after I got hold of the thing - marketed as the "Black Box" printer port sound sampler, so why it was actually a grey box is anyone's guess - that I felt I was able to make anything decent. Since those times I decided that a significant number of the things I did before its acquisition were actually pretty good, but still.
Anyway to celebrate this event, I have released some more tracks
- unnecessary percussion (text) I have long held a belief in the idea of the perfect record which can be better and better approximated. There is a formula or at the very least ingredients. This is one of the better approximations.
- aBoUt tImE! (text) In many ways this is the record that I always wanted to make when I started out making records. 1992 breakbeat rave, pianos, etc, it even rips off A Trip To Trumpton. As such it has a name in the same stupid capitalisation style I used at the time.
One year older and the chances of my life ever amounting to anything have all but disappeared. It's not like it was before when I started this site. For example I actually have a source of income. But I hate it and I'm too scared to say anything seriously about leaving. I don't even have the hope that I will find something that can stop the constant nagging from my brain "you're crap, no-one likes you, everything you do is worthless, why bother" any more, since without going into too much detail I pretty much did, only to lose it forever.
Anyway two years ago my mum made me go to the doctors about my inability to sleep. This was rubbish. I had no inability to sleep other than an internet connection that only worked at night. Whether or not she realised this as well, and was just using it as a front is irrelevant. The real reason was because I was becoming dangerously miserable. The doctors ended up getting me an appointment with a psychiatrist.
I nearly posted about it here but chickened out at the last minute because, get this, I thought it might hurt my prospects if some future employer were to find out about it. It suddenly struck me the other day just how ridiculous that was. Prospects, haha. It is a funny story about how the world is full of morons and I am a pathetic failure. There is no reason in the world why I shouldn't post it.
We went to Walsgrave Hospital. Already convinced this was going to be a huge embarrassment and waste of time, I had to get my mum to take me, which made it worse. When we got in and the desk nurses got round to us there was an obvious flurry of excitement that someone new was here. Perhaps they thought I could possibly be some kind of psychopath and the rubber suit needed to be prepared.
Eventually I went into a room with this indian guy. I only mention his race because of his impenetrable accent, made even more incomprehensible by his belief that everyone had 200dB gain inputs built into their hearing and talking in a whisper to rival a terminal malignant laryngitis and throat cancer sufferer on his deathbed was a perfectly acceptable way to conduct a sensitive interview. Nevertheless he managed to ask me a whole load of stupid questions, like
- "how old are you"
- "what do you think about your parents"
- "do you have a girlfriend"
- "are you gay"
- "who won the FA cup final in 1963?"
Anyway eventually we went to see the consultant. He was clearly not only way too extroverted for his own good, but he was also apparently "just retired" but on some sort of scheme like an emeritus professorship but for doctors. In psychiatric terms this basically means you still get paid shitloads but you don't have to care any more. So this guy basically
- said "your life is a tragedy, read this book"
- talked about himself. In particular
- when he was at university he hardly got any work done on account of playing first team football and drinking a lot
- flirted with my mum, while I sat there going "who is this supposed to be about, anyway"
In spite of having pretty much all the symptoms listed here I repeatedly insisted "I'm not depressed" because I have serious reservations about taking antidepressants (in particular, what happens when you stop) But anyway, while I've written my depressed rants on here I've had a few people along the line saying things like "you should seek professional help". Well, that's what happened when I did, so fuck it.
Chatlogs are only funny in the "you had to be there" sense
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<^BaBy^^JuL|eT^> anybody home???
<RjY> no
<^BaBy^^JuL|eT^> :)
<^BaBy^^JuL|eT^> hehehe
<^BaBy^^JuL|eT^> im so bored
<^BaBy^^JuL|eT^> talk to me
<RjY> why are you named like that
<RjY> are you a 46-year-old fat guy with a ginger beard
<^BaBy^^JuL|eT^> shittttttttttt
<^BaBy^^JuL|eT^> go 2 hell
<^BaBy^^JuL|eT^> fucking assholes
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<RjY> hahahahahahaha fucking hell
I THINK ITS TIME TO MAKE THE FLOOR BURN
productivity, n.: the advocacy of duct tape
heuristics, n: the study of whores in France
the only thing better than doom is doom on a 20" screen
I've said loads of times that most of the reason I run X is that I can have 4 80x24 terminals open on the same screen. I've also said lots of times that "wouldn't it be good if I could do 1600x1200 so I could get 9 open without overlapping"
Plans have been in place since Christmas. That is, I rearranged the work surface from
[a3010] [baron] [riscpc] [stereo]
where the spaces were at most a couple of inches, to
[a3010] [baron] [riscpc]
with the stereo up on the shelf with its speakers. It being up there required a certain amount of bodging as it overhung the shelf quite dangerously. In the end I swiped a tray from the kitchen to use as a support. I'm looking for a correctly shaped piece of wood or something with which to replace the tray.
Anyway the point was that the size of the gap was such that a very large replacement could be installed where baron's monitor was positioned. However the christmas holidays ran out and typically I started putting off buying anything as it is impossible to receive when you're out all day.
However, on Saturday I saw a used iiyama VM506 on dabs. All that was apparently wrong with it was that it had been opened. I went "oh fuck it" and put the order in (ref. "Damn Huge Monitor") In a strange piece of luck, Parcel Force didn't even attempt to deliver it until quarter to six this evening, by which time we were both home from work.
So here I am, with a 21" monitor. I've rigged up baron's old monitor to the A3010, so finally the crappy black and white tv can go back to being just a tv again, at least for a while. But, I still have things to sort out. For example, I might not even run it at 1600x1200 as the terminals are a little on the small size...
